Being an auditor....

It is boring...

work, work ,work and work some more,

it is endless cycle that I being going through for the last 3 month.

after close observation on auditor,

i came across that what i been learning at U

was not as same in real world,

auditor should be more independent but we seem to follow what our client want,

so what is our purpose of doing so ?

question mark there...

what lead to this event ?

maybe is because of the basis "serve and pay"

or is just down to money talk which is the fee...

Obedient...

we are like licking our client ass to ensure we will be their auditor for term to term

as long as money keep rolling in,

we will do anything to make sure our client is happy,

change their profit, adjust their account and event put some factitious claim in report

why.. why you ask me..

is this just away of business done here

or is just same all across country,

did we bother to change this

or we just naive to do so...

a lot to be ask,

a lot to be done,

but everything will be undone,

sooner or later..

Losing

The title...

Sometime we fear something,

we fear different thing

Different occasion,

How bout losing someone u love,

someone that always been there for you since you were born

The 2nd person that hold you in her arm,

hold you tight and never let you go,

It seem forever to remind me of that history

Losing you,

The woman in my live,

how could i live without you,

can i live without you,

What live it meant when you were gone,

will i ever lift the expectation you had,

did i grow out as you plan or am i a total failure

Yes, Im fear losing you,

losing the birth of my life,

for you mom,

i try my hardest till the day im losing you...

Cinta abadi

Di sini aku mencari

cinta yang abadi

Di sini aku terus berdiri

menanti kau hadir

Di sana engkau pun menangis

mencari cinta yang abadi

Di sana engkau pun berlari

terus meninggalkan ku sepi

harus kah aku hadapi

semua ini

berikan aku harapan

untuk ini

semoga ku temui

cinta yang abadi

*

Dengar lah wahai bidadari ku

ku tulis ini pada mu

Agar kau memahami

hati dan perasan ku

Dengar lah wahai sayang ku

Cinta ku hanya untuk mu

ini lah yang ku alami

sepanjang hari ku

Di sini aku pun berdiri

mencari cinta yang abadi

Tak usah kau berpaling

dari cinta yang abadi

Pulanglah kepadanya

cinta yang kau cari

Semoga kau jumpa

apa yang kau cari

haruskah aku hadapi

semua ini

berikan aku masa

untuk ini

agar cinta ku temui

ulang *

Di sini ku berdiri

menanti cinta abadi

di sini pun kau pergi

dari cinta abadi....

The one that gone away...

This must be stupid

but here we go

1. Nurul Izzati

2. Nurul Nadia Idayu

3. Roslinda

4. Arfah

5. Siti Hafawatinah

6. Sarah

7. Ayuni

8. Nina

9. some gurl at klang

10. Ratna Liza

11. Zarida

12. Mira

13. Michelle

14. Fatin Syazana

15. Siti Nurafidah

16. Maisarah

17.??????

*the name base on who i met according to time and did approach....

A year after...

Is been a year after

since that accident...

the promises

the dream

the hope and far

but now

seem so far away

wonder if thing have gone another way

could be better ?

could be worst ?

could it be happier ?

or could it be miserable ?

there is one poem bout this

the road not taken

one of my favourite

coz the author take the least option

and he succeed

am i bold enough to act as his?

this is the turning point of last year

this the moment where my dream shatter

did i make the mistake ?

did u make make the mistake ?

did we make the mistake ?

the answer remain unknow

only HE knew

am i regret ?

am i depress ?

could be...

but maybe this is the best part...

we learn from mistake

we can see the future

but we can see the past

yet now...

i remember all the little thing we used to do

suddenly remind me how we used to...

but the memory drain me in pain

am i not good enough ?

am i not up to it ?

could i make a wrong judgement..?

a year after

seem like yesterday

i remember it today

the day it gone away...

If i could....

Student:
Where did we come from,
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we grad?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say, "Degree is too short,"
"The here and the now"
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more,
Have I learn before,
Or could this be all that we've got?

If we grad tomorrow
we'd be all right
Because we believe
That after we're gone
The friendship carries on

we used to be frightened of FAR 400
we used to think that was the end
But that was before
we not scared anymore
we know that we will excel

we may never find all the answers
we may never understand why
we may never prove
What we know to be true
But we know that we still have to try

If we grad tomorrow
we'd be all right
Because we believe
That after we're gone
The friendship carries on

Lecturer:
"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at UiTM
Because you no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of us disappear"

Student:

Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain

Our questioning mind
Has helped us to find
The meaning in our life again

Our friendship is real
We finally feel
At peace with our dreams
And now that we all here
It's perfectly clear
We found out what all of this means

If we grad tomorrow
we'd be all right
Because we believe
That after we're gone
The friendship carries on

P/S: it is originally from the songs "the spirit carries on" but i alter a little bit to suit it as a songs fot graduation day where you sings with your fellow friend to your lecturer/teacher/who ever

"in a room of gloom"

Divided,

is it a trend,

hypocrite,

is it a disease.

why people so breakable

why people so depend on people

why cant their just be themselves

why their have to follow others

Selfish

fill in my shoes

anger,

fit on my shoes

Are you a dreamer

or just a believer

Are you in grudge

or just repentance

When i look back

all the glorious day that we had

it just felt stupid to see

that this is what we had

Out of my head

is been awhile

since i wrote here.

is been awhile,

since i let my feeling fill this page,

is been awhile

is been awhile

word,

thousand to say

thousand to tell

thousand to use

but

sometimes

we speechless

we numb

we stop

Is it a waste of time

or

is it the end

could be

but nevertheless

it still remain here

and not planning to quit either

so let hope this

"feeling"

is still here

out of nowhere

Misery

love to company me,

crying

is the form of exercise i do often

pain

consuming in the heart

relationship

rest in peace

Nothing... nothing at all

Undesired

Unwanted

Unneeded

Unpredictable

but

it came

it happen

it fulfil

it is real

therefore

leave the past

and

head to future

with

memory of present