A Failure...

The light that once light me has slowly disappear,
The ground that use to be where i am standing begin to shatter,

The future that once knew been rewrite yet whole over again,

The prison once vacant could be reopen.

Trap inside this hole with pain and misery,
Slip into the world of loneliness,
All is left are the memory,
In order to make you happy,

*

Hold as i carry this unholy love,
Run as you seek salvation,
Break this chain for you to run,

Death as this is the end for me

Beg as i beg for more,
Cold as cold as your heart is,
Dark as i swallow in,
Disappear is like a retreat

All i ever had,

All i ever dream,
Wash away into the sea,
Cling to this hope and slowly decay

*

Another story had be told,
another chapter has be tell,

another day has be elapse,
another life has be taken away...

FACEpalm....

For the first time,

FB server down.....
Congrat zuckerberg...

finally you fail for the first time...

;)

The dark side of the moon

Usually we talk bout the moon,

we always see the beauty of it,

true,

moon does look pretty especially when the full moon appear and no cloud blocking our view to see the beauty of it,

but as we look closer and closer to it,

we found that the moon does not pretty at all,

it just a desert of stone,

full of crater on it,

yet it look beauty from this place call earth,

earth,

can we compare with moon ?

does it the same level in term of beauty ?

so,

my point is,

we often neglect what is in front of us,

we don't appreciate what install for us,

earth is more beauty than moon,

earth is full of colour than moon that is so dull and barren,

it same goes with relationship,

we often neglect the person what in front of us,

we always find someone distant from you,

why ?

cause we see them to often until we never notice the beauty she has,

same goes as in relationship,

we sometime get bored with our partner until we found his/her not as attractive as before,

so is it our fault ?

maybe,

therefore,

appreciate what in front of you,

once you lose it,

you never get it back..

The pain....

"The most painful thing about breaking up,

is not when it it happen but,

is every time you have to tell people when they ask you how it happen....."

That the emo part,

the joke i was reading at Blogserius is

"They say the greatest pain is when giving child birth, but i beg to differ, getting a kick at your nut is worst because when you gave a birth, you ask another one for next year, but when you get kick at the nut, you never ask it ever..."

Trip to red house

Hmm....

Is anyone familiar with the red house at B....

If you knew, then you knew where i was today,

I met my friend at the monorail station,

After a few minute of chit chat here and there,

We walk to the red house,

Still not open ???

Damn....

So we go to the near MAMAk Stall...

So a little more of chit chat here and there,

Then we wait at the sidewalk,

All the new door, bed and fan are being install,

What the hell, is it this a routine for them to set up the place,

This will take a while....

Then we get so bored after seeing retired chicken walking around pass us,

So my friend took me to the near CC

We play Russian roulette and jackpot...

Since we play for fun, we lost at 3 round, haha...

Then we wait, wait, and wait some more...

Then i say what the fuck, is this how much i need to take to get laid,then i decided,

Let go home shall we..

Then after a hand shake... i set apart we my friend...

And thats all my journey to the red house, what a pathetic ending is it ?

Well i was bored and i have to write something to laugh at it...

Kembali pada yang mengerti...

Sayang

Telah ku renungi saat ini,

Di mana salah dan silap cinta ini

Yang ku bina bersama mu,

Sekelip mata impian ku berderai,

Lalu ku titis kan sebuah sungai,

Untuk mengenang kan mu,

Ku terpahat diri mu di hati ku

Telah ku ukir cinta bersama mu,

Agar kekal bersama selamanya

Namun ini semua angan ku,

Yang tinggal hanya kenangan bersama mu,

Untuk ku bekal ke akhirnya

Sayang tinggal sayang

Sayang pergi tinggal kan sayang

Sayang jauh di hati sayang

Sayang akan ku kenang jua,

Bengkak lah di hati ini

Jangan di tambah hati yang benci,

Kelak esok di bawa mati,

Saat manis kan ku kenangi,

Agar diri ini kembali suci,

Untuk kembali pada yang mengerti,

Sayang kembali sayang,

Sayang hancur di hati sayang,

Sayang meratapi sayang,

Sayang nya hanya sementara,

Tiup la angin di pohon yang senja,

Agar laut kembali bergelora,

Usah lah di kau berkata-kata manja,

Kerna hati ini sudah melara,

Ku semadikan kisah ini,

Untuk ku ajari diri ini,

Bertapa sukar hati ku ini,

Untuk melepaskan cinta ini....

"(T.T)"

Get it right...

well that the songs rachel sang to frankerfinn

things are not simple as it seem,

it happen,

there no need for me to say,

love has faded since that night

well,

i better get it right when i gave my heard to someone else,

twice it occur and twice the pain it hurt,

shall this wound heal ?

or it bleed and blend till i nail my on coffins

so next post is gonna be my serenade to you...

Journey

Journey

Here we are, at the edge of borderline

another step will became another leap of our life

as we stood here on the line,

look back for where we started,

take a deep breath and close ours eyes,

embrace the moment we share together,

the laugh and tear together

and look where we are now

As we look back, we saw our reflection

the first day we met,

the first class we attend,

the first time we introduce to ourselves

yet it still look like yesterday,

but finally,

we come to the end,

this is the journey we had

we know it will not last forever

and all of the time we had

we knew this the best time of our lives

Soon the door will close forever,

better pick up what left for us,

and through all this year

we dream for this moments

but as it lay on us

we stall for a moments

As we look back, we saw what we are made of

from boy to men

from ignorant to wise

from nothing to some thing

yet we still are learning,

till then

we are nothing

this the journey we had

it may not last forever

but in our heart it will

cause this is the best of our times

look ahead and see what install for us

another journey that await for us

until we meet again

my friend

this is the journey i had

i know it last forever

cause everytime in mind

i think of you guys in my head....

light....

shining bright..

sun...

burn so bright...

you...

shine so bright...

love...

burn it all...

now...

is done...

please..

let be one..

cause..

i am so tired...

to..

hang on...

how could is so soon

how could you knew

seem like it be noon

and all will be new

please...

take it off..

before..

i come..

so..

it will not mess..

for

you...

how could is so soon

how could you knew

seem like it be noon

and all will be new

love..

is a drug...

love..

is a pain..

love..

is a pig...

but...

it's all lie...

Being an auditor....

It is boring...

work, work ,work and work some more,

it is endless cycle that I being going through for the last 3 month.

after close observation on auditor,

i came across that what i been learning at U

was not as same in real world,

auditor should be more independent but we seem to follow what our client want,

so what is our purpose of doing so ?

question mark there...

what lead to this event ?

maybe is because of the basis "serve and pay"

or is just down to money talk which is the fee...

Obedient...

we are like licking our client ass to ensure we will be their auditor for term to term

as long as money keep rolling in,

we will do anything to make sure our client is happy,

change their profit, adjust their account and event put some factitious claim in report

why.. why you ask me..

is this just away of business done here

or is just same all across country,

did we bother to change this

or we just naive to do so...

a lot to be ask,

a lot to be done,

but everything will be undone,

sooner or later..