Losing

The title...

Sometime we fear something,

we fear different thing

Different occasion,

How bout losing someone u love,

someone that always been there for you since you were born

The 2nd person that hold you in her arm,

hold you tight and never let you go,

It seem forever to remind me of that history

Losing you,

The woman in my live,

how could i live without you,

can i live without you,

What live it meant when you were gone,

will i ever lift the expectation you had,

did i grow out as you plan or am i a total failure

Yes, Im fear losing you,

losing the birth of my life,

for you mom,

i try my hardest till the day im losing you...

Cinta abadi

Di sini aku mencari

cinta yang abadi

Di sini aku terus berdiri

menanti kau hadir

Di sana engkau pun menangis

mencari cinta yang abadi

Di sana engkau pun berlari

terus meninggalkan ku sepi

harus kah aku hadapi

semua ini

berikan aku harapan

untuk ini

semoga ku temui

cinta yang abadi

*

Dengar lah wahai bidadari ku

ku tulis ini pada mu

Agar kau memahami

hati dan perasan ku

Dengar lah wahai sayang ku

Cinta ku hanya untuk mu

ini lah yang ku alami

sepanjang hari ku

Di sini aku pun berdiri

mencari cinta yang abadi

Tak usah kau berpaling

dari cinta yang abadi

Pulanglah kepadanya

cinta yang kau cari

Semoga kau jumpa

apa yang kau cari

haruskah aku hadapi

semua ini

berikan aku masa

untuk ini

agar cinta ku temui

ulang *

Di sini ku berdiri

menanti cinta abadi

di sini pun kau pergi

dari cinta abadi....

The one that gone away...

This must be stupid

but here we go

1. Nurul Izzati

2. Nurul Nadia Idayu

3. Roslinda

4. Arfah

5. Siti Hafawatinah

6. Sarah

7. Ayuni

8. Nina

9. some gurl at klang

10. Ratna Liza

11. Zarida

12. Mira

13. Michelle

14. Fatin Syazana

15. Siti Nurafidah

16. Maisarah

17.??????

*the name base on who i met according to time and did approach....

A year after...

Is been a year after

since that accident...

the promises

the dream

the hope and far

but now

seem so far away

wonder if thing have gone another way

could be better ?

could be worst ?

could it be happier ?

or could it be miserable ?

there is one poem bout this

the road not taken

one of my favourite

coz the author take the least option

and he succeed

am i bold enough to act as his?

this is the turning point of last year

this the moment where my dream shatter

did i make the mistake ?

did u make make the mistake ?

did we make the mistake ?

the answer remain unknow

only HE knew

am i regret ?

am i depress ?

could be...

but maybe this is the best part...

we learn from mistake

we can see the future

but we can see the past

yet now...

i remember all the little thing we used to do

suddenly remind me how we used to...

but the memory drain me in pain

am i not good enough ?

am i not up to it ?

could i make a wrong judgement..?

a year after

seem like yesterday

i remember it today

the day it gone away...

If i could....

Student:
Where did we come from,
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we grad?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say, "Degree is too short,"
"The here and the now"
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more,
Have I learn before,
Or could this be all that we've got?

If we grad tomorrow
we'd be all right
Because we believe
That after we're gone
The friendship carries on

we used to be frightened of FAR 400
we used to think that was the end
But that was before
we not scared anymore
we know that we will excel

we may never find all the answers
we may never understand why
we may never prove
What we know to be true
But we know that we still have to try

If we grad tomorrow
we'd be all right
Because we believe
That after we're gone
The friendship carries on

Lecturer:
"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at UiTM
Because you no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of us disappear"

Student:

Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain

Our questioning mind
Has helped us to find
The meaning in our life again

Our friendship is real
We finally feel
At peace with our dreams
And now that we all here
It's perfectly clear
We found out what all of this means

If we grad tomorrow
we'd be all right
Because we believe
That after we're gone
The friendship carries on

P/S: it is originally from the songs "the spirit carries on" but i alter a little bit to suit it as a songs fot graduation day where you sings with your fellow friend to your lecturer/teacher/who ever

"in a room of gloom"

Divided,

is it a trend,

hypocrite,

is it a disease.

why people so breakable

why people so depend on people

why cant their just be themselves

why their have to follow others

Selfish

fill in my shoes

anger,

fit on my shoes

Are you a dreamer

or just a believer

Are you in grudge

or just repentance

When i look back

all the glorious day that we had

it just felt stupid to see

that this is what we had

Out of my head

is been awhile

since i wrote here.

is been awhile,

since i let my feeling fill this page,

is been awhile

is been awhile

word,

thousand to say

thousand to tell

thousand to use

but

sometimes

we speechless

we numb

we stop

Is it a waste of time

or

is it the end

could be

but nevertheless

it still remain here

and not planning to quit either

so let hope this

"feeling"

is still here

out of nowhere

Misery

love to company me,

crying

is the form of exercise i do often

pain

consuming in the heart

relationship

rest in peace

Nothing... nothing at all

Undesired

Unwanted

Unneeded

Unpredictable

but

it came

it happen

it fulfil

it is real

therefore

leave the past

and

head to future

with

memory of present

Songs in my head rite now..

Last Night on Earth

I text a postcard, sent to you
Did it go through?
Sending all my love to you.
You are the moonlight of my life every night
Giving all my love to you
My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you.

With every breath that I am worth
Here on earth
I'm sending all my love to you.
So if you dare to second guess
you can rest assured
That all my love's for you

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
I'm sending all my love to you.

My beating heart belongs to you
I walked for miles til I found you
I'm here to honor you
If I lose everything in the fire
Did I ever make it through?

Is this different ?

Muah !

and

Muah muah muah muah !

wohoo..wohoo..

New layout

New title

New ambition

thanks to

BF

not Boy Friend

(i am not GAY!!!)

BunkFace

Exkstravaganza

Semangat baru
Perjuangan yang satu
Dan matlamat hidupku
Hanya untukmu

Tapi keadaanmu
Berikan aku
Berikan aku satu petanda
Prasangka
Aku kalah

Rasa resah jangan kau percaya
Dalam hatimu.. (dalam hatimu)
Rasa resah jangan kau percaya
Kata hatimu.. (kata hatimu)

Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..

Persepsi diri
Ada maksud sendiri
Dan propaganda ku rasa
Luar biasa

Tapi keadaanmu
Berikan aku
Berikan aku satu petanda
Prasangka
Aku kalah lagi

Rasa resah jangan kau percaya
Dalam hatimu.. (dalam hatimu)
Rasa resah jangan kau percaya
Kata hatimu.. (kata hatimu)

Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..

Ekstravaganza
Ekstravaganza
Ekstravaganza
Ekstravaganza

Rasa resah jangan kau percaya
Dalam hatimu.. (dalam hatimu)
Rasa resah jangan kau percaya
Kata hatimu

Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..
Wooo.. wooo..

I pass away

My friend

how are you

you look skinny since we met

hello there

is nice to met you again

could this be your chance

to have a drink with him

Do you remember

how she were

the smile that light the class

the joke that we shared

and dont forget

the thing you and her had

Sadly time was short

a candle light blew away

life was short

you pass away

Hey you

you remember me

how chubby i used to be

oh hai

i glad to see you again

can be this is the chance

do have dinner with him

Can you remember

how was i

the smile that light the class

how you joke bout me

and also

the thing you and I

My life is short

as i blew away

time cut short

i pass away

Guys

how it feel like

to be alive

to get married and have kid

to grow old

and see our children grow

My life is short

as i fly away

the journey stop

when my heart stop

In memory of Noremma Nadia (1990-2010)

R.I.P

Interview within self

Is been awhile i write anything on this blog

causes?

i have someone to listen and talk to

different?

yes, big different even though sometime she pretend to listen but she is not ( coz she made this face when she are not listening)

songs?

still trying to have few word to fill the missing pieces of the songs

news?

couple of week ago

my friend past away

she involve in accident (hit and run)

damn that guy(he or she)

u kill an innocent girl

she just celebrate his birthday on 6th April

she just 20 years old

i felt guilty not treat her anything on her bufday

(cause we were shooting mandarin that day)

aarggghhh..

the guiltiness inside of me

she even ask me to fetch her up at tesco in the following day

poor girls

God is the best director of all times

she past away on 11th April

the next day on mandarin class

laoshi show us the video of us

when the part of her shows up

i can felt the gloom in the class

so tragic

so sad

even our friend let laoshi know by speaking mandarin

(yeah, that dude are really good, nope awesome)

so now

everyone move on

what make me sad is

she openly talk bout her

she just broke up with her bf

on 13th mac (she let me know)

and that doocebag says he want to be good or watever

and the next two day he find some whore opps i mean girl

she really stress out and even after that

she still wait for him

poor dude

i dont know what your feeing but it must be suck to be u now

anything else?

just prepare for final even not in the mood to study at all

Take Away

Hey look,

Is time to say goodbye

we had fun

we had tear,

but time is running out,

and you have to go

Thanks for the day we had

i'll cherish the moment we had,

thanks for everything

thanks for any thing

Do you feel better

do you feel glad

do you feel even happier

coz i am

Take your minion with you,

take all the click you need,

let them cheer you up,

let them serenade you,

Good bye

sail across the sea

leave this place with peace and harmony

nobody tear while you away

coz nobody likes you

we deserve better than you,

so now you far away

everyone happily move away

from the sadness u left behind

Hold on

stare to the wall in front of me,

thinking all sort of thing

but it seem nothing

that can escape this feeling

put your shoes in front of me

and lend me a pair to tell me

how world surround me

let light shine me,

shall it lead to paradise once promises

or another hollow place once visit

tell me what remind me

the men inside your heart,

the men you love

the men you cherish

crush my heart,

as my world crash,

surrender to pain and sadness

dark my life once bright

fill the river of tear once more

restore the kingdom of remorse once again

where is the place we use to sat

laugh and smile all day long

where is this place

our dream

our destiny

our future

no matter the ride was

no matter how tough it has been

we stood by for what we believe

but like sand wash by the sea

it disappear quickly

and there nothing left but hope

hold on

hold on

is this enough

hold on

hold on

am i dying now

hold on

hold on

is be tough

hold on

hold on

am i dead now

a cross the road

there is place once i knew

paradise i once in

but like a stranger it seem

i let myself be

drown in this feeling

so now wake up

wake up from this dream

my eternal glory

It is me

It is me,

because im the source of this,

i am the problem,

i am the disease

i am the agony

my wrath upon u are mine to responsible,

pain and misery

tear and headache

flu and mumble

all comes to you,

yet again

a lost myself to the path once before

the path i hate most

without effort

i fail with flying colour

without guide

i destroy what i treasure most,

i am not perfect nor noble person,

my faith are yet to question it self

but why am i deserve someone like you,

there is no other way i let my self this kind of love

there is no more hate that i felt before,

there is time to forgive and forgiven

and all hope are lost,

drown in lake of despair and depress

sail me a boat of hope,

a long the journey

teach me some way

or somehow

to be what you want me to be

cause all i touch is becoming the gold midas

nothing is useful,

nothing is remember

and nothing to carry on

like a rose that bloom in month of may,

wither by the month of november,

could our love be like that

love by a season

is that what i am looking for,

i want a lifetime

i want to cherish as long as i can

but yet again

it is me,

it is me

There was a time

There was a time,
I held you so high,
there was a time,
you are my idol,
there was a time,
i want to be you,

But everything change,
you broke your promises
you lie to us,
you did not care bout me,

*(oh) How everything change,
since you far away,
there no place to run away,
so let us fade away,
rather than cast away,

Could thing be change,
could life be better or worst,
Is it real or fantasy,
Is it just me or you,

Can we undo time,
and rewrite what mistake we done,
because we out of time,
and everything is set and done

repeat*

Remember,
the tear and hug we share,
memory that we share,
the pain and agony we share,
that last forever in our heart

Tear that shatter the heart

Hold on

as i about to leave

stare at the lovely smile of your

why can this last forever

why it has to be end

dont leave me here all alone

by the time i need you the most

hold on

with this hand of your

i need your strength to carry me on

beyond this wall

is the place where you belong

with me

*Is there no other way

to make you come again

since you far away

im lost all over again

**Now you here in my arm

it feel like the world is mine

peace and harmony

all over the place

perfection some might call

that how you change my life

hold on

the ride is about to come

pack your back is time to say good bye

the journey we had was a blast

i hope soon the day will come

to stay with you forever

but now is the end

as i let you go

the tear shatter the heart

i knew it was only for moment

but the feeling is killing me

repeat * and **

Stare at the window

with eyes watching you

shut the door and pain fade away

where memory and word disappear

Kata kata

Telah ku cari apa yang ku cari

telah ku puas akan segalanya

tak mungkin lagi ko berpaling

akan semuanya tertulis untuk ku

Burung berkicau keriangan

angin bertiup menyusuk kalbu

Indah nya hari bagaikan di syurga

ku ingin terus di samping mu

Siulan bermulanya cerita

antara adam dan hawa

yang tertulis bukan rekaan

yang di cerita semua dongeng

Antara kaca atau delima

minyak disanjung tidak terhingga

harapkan bulan pulang ke riba

tapi yang pulang hanya kaca

sekian lama bercerita

cerita yang tiada tanya

moga kata tidak kecewa

pulang lah ia ke asalnya

You like, I like it more

The is no word that can describe my feeling every time I see this lovely picture of us,

I miss you so much sayang !!!

Love is like a hurricane

Hmmm....

there is no word to describe this feeling,

it is an unnamed feeling

this particular week,

has been outstanding,

all start from 9.05 am on Friday till 7.10 pm on Sunday

you complete me dear

you make me cry when you walk on the train,

im gonna miss this time,

the time when you are here with me,

all the memory and event that we been through this week

is just take my heart away,

i really lost word to tell you how i felt,

but i know you are happy.

thanks for coming here all the way from arau,

thanks for the sacrifice you made,

hope it really pays off

by all sincere in my heart is,

I LOVE YOU

thanks

MyAiSaraH

I ♥ U

See the sky above there

As I smile watching our behaviour

There is always story behind it

That lead to argument

All I want is to be happy

For both of us being in love

Good and bad about me

Accept me for who I am

Just make sure between you and me

There is no other love

Never cross mind

My intention to walk away

I am sorry my love

If you are not happy

How high is sky above

I will pursuit for your happiness

Let sky and earth crumble

Let our body buried under

Never let u go and still together

Loving you make me like this

P.S: I ♥ U

To write or to fall ???

Orait

time to update a liitle bit,

tomorrow

Prime minister are attending

to my campus

but

im not teling how excited i am because

i want to tell,

how hypocrite is the people is,

why i am saying that,

in less than 3 days

everything is new at KBM

from tiles to tar

seriously

for the sake of HIM

we got everything new

we even got the new signboard

why before this

they never bother or care less about the surrounding at KBM

what a hypocrite this is,

all for the sake of one men,

anyway,

hope to shake hand with him and new VC,

Abu Shah i already shake,

now is Sahul time,

hehe

the blog are not update as occasionly like it use to be,

since i found my happyness with her,

i always share with her

so this blog sometimes meaningless

but still

i need something to write ??

hmm,

need material,

urm

btw,

sound on my mind

at this is for you

hahaha

Drama King

Meet Uncle Hussain feat Black

Kali pertama aku mengenalimu
Mahu bersama
Raut wajahmu bersih
Meyakinkan hati ini
Aku terpaut

Semua dusta palsu
Aku tertipu
Keperibadianmu
Berubah menurut nafsu

Panggilanmu gelaranmu
Baru ku tahu

Lakon layarmu hebat
Terpukau ku melihat
Isi hati mu tahan
Sampai bila
Kau mahu tersesat
Tidak kau penat
Hidup penuh muslihat

Mahkotamu Raja Drama

Kau Masih berpura-pura
Kata-katamu hanya propaganda
Mengejar hijau ungu
Mata kelabu
Ini bukan kau yg pernah ku kenal dulu

Panggilanmu gelaranmu
Baruku tahu

Kau bertakhta
Bagai maharaja di angkat sembah
Lakon layarmu yg terhebat
Memukau mata melihat
Tidak kau penat
Hidup penuh dengan tipu muslihat
Sampai bila Raja Drama
Sampai bila Raja Drama

Tidak kau penat
Hidup penuh dengan tipu muslihat
Sampai bila Raja Drama
Sampai bila Raja Drama
Tidak kau penat
Hidup penuh dengan tipu muslihat

Well

Well

do you know that the project of school of gifted student

are costing us rm 100 million per year...

do you also

there is book about mahathir

that says he miss use the government money

around rm 100 billion

so what is the point i am saying here

well

go figure it out

see the dark side of the moon...

Mana?

mana

tak ingin ku duga,

destinasi yang mu tuju,

pergi,

tak usah berpaling,

bawa diri dengan impian mu,

kau selalu di hati ku

tapi sayang tak ke mana,

musnah dan hampa diri ku,

tak kisah kau ke mana,

jangan

berpura pura lagi,

ku tahu kau rindu pada ku,

sayang,

ku bukan dulu lagi,

boneka yang kau puja,

kau selalu di hati ku,

tapi sayang tak ke mana,

musnah dan hampa diri ku

tak kisah kau ke mana

terbang la bidadari ku

bawa lah cinta ku pergi,

hingap la pada yang sudi,

kerna ku ingin mu pergi,

kau tiada di hati ku

dan sayang entah ke mana

lega dan tenang diri ku

hilang kau ke mana

Yearning for you

"the night"

every time in the night,

she was there for me,

i never felt like she can make me miss her

but to be honest,

she did

i love the way she say to me

how she miss me,

how badly she want to see me,

it make me appreciate what i have

before this,

i pursuit for someone that i dont deserve,

and yet

i still wait for her,

now i found happiness with this person,

i really2 hope she felt same way as i do

both of us just came through a bad relationship

who knew we could fall in love,

the probability of us met are very low,

i met her at debate tournament

while im not a debater,

weird right ?

"the dust"

some people says

we are so fast to felt in love,

but

is something new for us

we like each other very much

some how

we just keep perfecting each other

i got good and bad habit

so does she

but we manage to find a same ground to compromise each other

so far,

so good,

im happy with you sayang

even you far from my eyes

yet you still close to me in my heart,

through dark and light

i hope we can manage this relationship

really2 hope to see you,

and pray we be happily ever after

from here now and ever

XOXO

To you...yes you...you know is you!!!

Maybe You're Gone

Binocular

Thought you were an angel
Shining in the clouds
Thought you were so faithful
Now I have my doubts

Maybe you're gone
You're gone
To sleep
Maybe you're gone
You're gone
For keeps

Thought you were my best friend
At least I tried to make it true
But though I hate to be alone
I was the loneliest with you

Maybe you're love
Is gone
To sleep
Maybe my love
Is gone
To deep

I'll never know
So never mind
You're out of sight
Well at least you're out of mind

Maybe our love
Is gone
To sleep
Maybe our love
Is gone
For keeps

M.A.I.S.A.R.A.H.M.A.Y.A.D.I

More than i imagine

Are you for real

Is this fantasy

So can it last forever

All i wish this could be true

Right now is you I been craving for

And hope you will feel the same way as I do

How can this be so real

May god bless us

And carry trough this journey

Young and naive we are

All is written to us

Don't wish it will be a smooth ride

In the end you belong to me